So i guess this is my first jounal in like a year or so but then again things have gone all kinds of weird on this end and i apologize to those you have remembered me on here and those of you who know me somewhat well know i tend to disappear for long periods of time; but this time i swear it was legitamete lol.
so where to start really.
within the last few years i have have had extremly mentaly damaging events happen things that would not really be that big of a deal to other people but affected me in a big way and got many medical events that have occured. I met someone that i was going to ask to marry me but instead she left and i fell into a huge depression, some of you might have been around for, next i left for a long time on my own to live alone and got in another relationship, this time with them wanting to marry me but ultimetly leaving me cuz of their friend who was more a boyfriend to her than me in the way that they treated each other and her friend thought i was trying to steal her away and she left me for it the hardest part being that this friend was a girl, and in the end of that relationship i lost major friends in my life who got angry at me cuz they thought i was ignoring them for her even though she lived with them. this blow cuzed me to leave all online social sites, facebook, myspace and here. i wanted nothing to do with them anyone for a time and went through a time of wanting to give up on my ideals. i went into therpy for a while and even had a time of being on anti-depressents though for some reason they made me more angry at people so i stopped taking them. i started drinking alot and began getting into alot fo self scaring, got piercing, and cut all my hair off, the whole trying to find a new identity kind of thing.
Also this year i have had major issues in finding out that the joints in my wrists are begining to wear out and the Doctors told me i may have 10 years left of full use of my hands, which caused another blow to my mental stance as a artist, but through my family and my church i have been able to keep going and trying to continue on in art.
time past and ended up moving again but at this time i dont want to let anyone know too much about where i am anymore. i am in a new realtionship with a girl i have off and on known for the last 6 year but mostly as a friend through other people, she was going through a hard time and i tried to help with it ending up with us together. it is much healthier for me i think than the last couple relationships have been. it has only been this last year that i have begun to make some real inprovments in my life.In Feb i decided to take the step and got into a art gallery with my work and sold over $400 dollars worth of work and used the money to start kick starting improvments in my art set up. i am nearing completion of my metal studio so that i can begin taking metal work commisions.
the most recent update is that i am going to have my first pet since i was 15 years old, i am buying a suger glider and for those who know what is they are awsome. i have finally upgraded my computer and tools with commision money to have a new bamboo tablet and CS5 installed. i am currentyly typing this on the new laptop iwas able to afford and working on new pieces that are going to show in Colorados Chile Festival in august. the biggest news is that for the first time i will be sharing a table at NDK this year with
a.deviantart.net/avatars/a/n/a… who let me show with her. !!!!!!!!
so for all those who have stuck by and waited to hear from me and stuck in there, thank you for sticking in there with me, and for those in Colorado, i hope to see you in person soon.